Confronting Anxiety Through Boxing
I’ve lived much of my life overwhelmed by debilitating anxiety, where “doing scary things” meant simple tasks like being out at night or making phone calls, never anything like fighting in front of an audience.
Taking a Leap
Recently, I resolved to combat my anxiety by trying new activities, which led me to join a boxing class. Worst-case scenario, it would provide material for a column about being a middle-aged woman in a young man’s realm.
Finding My Strength
The experience was transformative. Boxing requires constant repetition and, after hitting a heavy bag, I felt a surge of empowerment. The sweat and energy around me fueled a desire to fight back against my fears.
Training for the Fight
I embraced the challenge, training at the gym two days a week, then escalating to six. When the gym announced a fight night, I surprisingly agreed, even though part of me doubted I would actually step into the ring.
Facing the Ring
On fight day, I prepared meticulously—braiding my hair, buying new equipment, and warming up—fully aware that I could still back out at the last moment. As I entered the ring, the crowd roared, and I suddenly panicked, realizing I was about to hit someone.
The Match
Despite my fears, the bell rang, and I managed to throw several punches, sharing laughs with my opponent amidst the chaos. However, I was swiftly knocked out in less than two rounds.
A Lesson in Courage
While the experience left me feeling embarrassed, it also sparked a realization. Just a few years ago, I wouldn’t even walk into a store alone. Boxing forced me to confront my fears head-on—even if I lost. The experience was empowering, and I would gladly step into the ring again.
— Anna Spargo-Ryan, author of A Kind of Magic, The Gulf, and The Paper House, and winner of the Horne Prize.
